SHADES

There are things I have done
There are places I have gone
There are smiles that I mourn
There are darkness I let run

There are gift I have sent
There are places we've both went
There are words I never meant
There are friendships I never earn

There are things I let go
There are are some secret you should know
There are friends and there are foe
There are stones you shouldn't throw

There are my past which I regret
There are places we've both eat
There are pains which I had inflicted
There are mistakes which you've neglected

There are things you can't forgive
There are past you can't retrieve
There are lies you shouldn't believe
There are path you can't leave

How does it feel? To own a heart made of steel
How does it feel? To have a companion full of will
How does it feel? When all the pain aren't real
How does it feel? When your happiness they do steal

I hope I could find my redemption
I hope I could gain your attention
I wish I could be your soul companion
I hope you'll respect my opinion.
    
                                                               #Harnasky™

THE STRUGGLE FOR ACCEPTANCE

She just wants to be, beautiful
She wants to be loyal and remain so humble
She wants to be recognized, and praised “The Noble”
She wants to be on top, and don't want to tremble
She mind her ways so as not to crumble

She praises beauty and craves attention
She desires to be loved with total submission
She will stop at nothing till she fulfil her intention
With low self esteem she fears rejection
She cries alone thinking she need redemption

She desire to be noticed by the crowds she thought she has deceived
She drowned in the scene of sins till she became weak in all she believed
She convinced herself there's light in the lies she conceived
Not knowing are faith and patience will make her feel relieved
Of all the troubles she chooses her life to lead

She wonders how she have to make them make her day
She never realized how perfect she was all the way
So she tries to cover up her pain, and cut her woes away
"Why pretend?” was the same question she was asked in may
Still the struggle for acceptance was the price she was meant to pay.

The feelings were new, she never felt them before
Never expect her reaction to be this sore
Hoped and aimed to be on top, but alone she was left to wonder along the shore
For the gentle humility and humbleness she once stood for
She was now left to be judge with her new score

Alone she was left to praise her own pride flame
With her lonely ignorance and arrogance to blame
Even her flowing garment of regret couldn't prevent her shame
Even in tears of agony her audience reaction were all the same
For all her deeds she is meant to be the acclaim

For her humble nature she should have accept
For the law of societal acceptance she would have learn to respect
For social inferiority she could have neglect
But choose to put her desire to fit in first
And eventually all her aim she lost

My dear don't ever forget to love, keep loving who you are
Believe in you best and embrace your inner star
Let your neutrality and humanity erase your scar
Then  your name will be what they would roar
And would be recognized and acknowledged even from afar.
                                                  
    
                                                                  Harnasky™